As much as I love and appreciate a man that can hold me down when I need it, I don’t need anyone to take care of me. I can take care of myself. I don’t need anyone showering me in materialistic things, I don’t need anyone paying for my things, I don’t need anyone providing for me, I don’t need anyone’s money or pity. I don’t need fancy things to survive. If I struggle, let me struggle or else I’ll forget the beauty of success. If I need your help, I’ll let it be known. I’m too independent to rely on anyone, just keep me in check and remind me of what’s important and what’s not, and that’s way more than enough.

I feel pretty dumb because I know nothing about you but I haven’t felt a spark like this in a very long time..

“The first love is the sweetest, but the first cut is the deepest.”

I would do anything to be so deeply in love again. At this point I feel as if there’s absolutely no possibility of me falling in love ever again. Yes I’m still young, yes there’s still so much to life than to have a boyfriend, but I’m built on love. Love has built me up, and only love can break me down. I breathe love, I live love. I desperately miss looking at my loved one and shedding a couple of tears because I’m so grateful of being so incredibly blessed. I’m too messed up, I’m too fucked up, I’ve been through too much and built my walls up too high for anyone to be motivated enough to break through. I want to feel that high again, I want to lay in silence with the one I love and feel as though there’s absolutely nobody on the planet except us two. I know God has a plan for me, but I’m left feeling so empty and alone. You can’t choose who you fall in love with so I’m just sitting here, patiently waiting.

Lately I haven’t been feeling like myself. Something’s missing, and I can’t put my finger on it. I feel empty. 

Sometimes I miss you,
sometimes I don’t.
When the love was real
then it never fades.